How am I going to be an optimist about this?

Pompeii - Bastille 

Dang it!!!!    I went in for my treatment today and my white blood counts were too low so treatment was delayed for a week.   That blows my goal of completing chemo without missing or rescheduling a treatment.   That puts off my 7th and second last treatment for a week or longer depending on when my counts are up and I can be scheduled in.

It's not uncommon to be rescheduled or be delayed so I shouldn't be so bummed about it but it really gets to me.  It's like my body isn't playing the game along with me anymore.    Just when I thought we had the routine all down pat.   I guess I'm not the one in control.  So now I take new drugs to boost the white blood cells - a shot a day and wait to be rescheduled.

It's easy to get bummed out so I'll try to take the positive approach to this.    Let's see.....

• the weather is nice
• I don't have to worry about the side effects of the chemo drugs for another week
• although I can't have treatment, I am not feeling too bad
• other than the usual side effects, I haven't had any other complications
• I have time to spend with family and friends when I am not suffering from pain or illness from the chemo
• I have time to catch up on my reading and idiotic television shows
• it shakes things up a bit - change - and I like change
• one week delay in a 24 week procedure is minor - 1 week is 4% of the time so extending for another week isn't really a big deal
• there's still two FIFA games to watch 

So really.  What's the big deal?   Just another bump in the road.   Still on track, still headed in the right direction.