I'm not intentionally taking the song title route for each post. It's just that when I come up to naming the post whatever rings out to me always seems to spark a reminder of a song. It just works. This one Changes by Davie Bowie.
The diagnosis of cancer has changed me. I don't feel like the same person I was a few months ago. I look at everything differently; I feel different. Amazing how one word can do that. Maybe it's just a realization that I have changed over the past years and I'm in a new stage in my life. It feels good, feels peaceful. I think I'll like it here.
Could be a temporary feeling - a checking in of sorts - seeing where I'm at. Not related to the diagnosis at all but rather just an acknowledgement that I've passed through a door, a one way door. Like falling in love for the first time, holding a newborn son or daughter, losing a parent or partner. My world is different. It has changed.
Now I want to bring on even more change. Where I focus my time, daily priorities and routines and diet. Not uncommon for me to shuffle the furniture around in the house but it has been a obsession of mine over the past months to completely change and personalize my bedroom. To make it match this new version of me.
I want to try new things, build on this new stage and make it noticeably different from the last.
So I will continue to shuffle around priorities, energy and focus through this next stage starting out with the little speed bump in the road that this diagnosis brings.
The diagnosis of cancer has changed me. I don't feel like the same person I was a few months ago. I look at everything differently; I feel different. Amazing how one word can do that. Maybe it's just a realization that I have changed over the past years and I'm in a new stage in my life. It feels good, feels peaceful. I think I'll like it here.
Could be a temporary feeling - a checking in of sorts - seeing where I'm at. Not related to the diagnosis at all but rather just an acknowledgement that I've passed through a door, a one way door. Like falling in love for the first time, holding a newborn son or daughter, losing a parent or partner. My world is different. It has changed.
Now I want to bring on even more change. Where I focus my time, daily priorities and routines and diet. Not uncommon for me to shuffle the furniture around in the house but it has been a obsession of mine over the past months to completely change and personalize my bedroom. To make it match this new version of me.
I want to try new things, build on this new stage and make it noticeably different from the last.
So I will continue to shuffle around priorities, energy and focus through this next stage starting out with the little speed bump in the road that this diagnosis brings.
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