Sledgehammer

Sledgehammer - Peter Gabriel

This morning it felt exactly like a sledgehammer had hit me.    Complete exhaustion.   Like a very harsh flu but without the nausea and vomiting.       Yes, chemo induced but I hate to say a lot of it was also self induced.

Admittedly, against my better judgement - I pushed it too far.  I felt good yesterday in the morning and headed out for a walk - not my usual walk - I toned it down.  With my sister and a friend I took the seabus and walked a short few blocks to a chocolate-coffee shop - East Van Roasters*** see information below.   I even took the bus up the hill rather than walk.   Sounds pretty tame eh?   Well -  I should have stopped there.

Instead of a nice quiet afternoon nap and mellow evening, I jumped into helping my son complete his year end project.   Not that it was tons of work but I couldn't effectively provide consult from a prone position - which is how I should have been.    Add in - daughter's play costume completion.   Once I got into my old habits of just keep pushing through I couldn't stop.   When we won't do it ourselves eventually our body kicks in to give us the message.    That's when the sledgehammer came it.   Whomp!!    I'm learning but sometimes you have to whack me in the head to get the message across.

Today, I didn't leave the house and basically couch surfed.   Feeling much better now - one more day of couching and I'll be back on track.   Phew!    Ducked a bullet there.


***East Van Roasters (eastvanroasters.com) is an artisan chocolate and coffee bar on Carrall Street just off Gastown in Vancouver.   It is a non-profit designed to provide training and employment to women residents of the Rainer Hotel.  Women trying to get back into workplace.   It is more than that though.  A wonderful experience, with great taste and quality.    Both coffee and chocolate are created right from the bean.      Definitely something both to check out and a great organization to support.