Vienna - Billy Joel
The past 6 months have been a rush between surgery, treatment, good days, bad days, surgical adventure and recovery. I need to now constantly remind myself to slow down and take the time to recover. It's like giving myself permission to let go, ask for help and delegate. I like to think that I'm getting pretty good at it.
I'm still recovering from chemo - feeling the cumulative energy drain but happy not to be knocked down again every three weeks with another treatment. I'm also recovering from surgery - more of an energy drain then I had considered. My little midnight adventure in the hospital didn't help at all either. There are up and down days now that I measure by the length of my walks or tasks accomplished.
My sights are now focused on the end of this journey but won't rush myself through the process. I will take the time for my body to receive and recover from the treatment. There's still quite a bit to come my way. The next treatment on my plate is radiation - 3.5 weeks of daily treatment likely to start 2-3 weeks from now. From what I have been told that is another energy zap. From there is hormone therapy - another potential roller coaster ride but we'll take that as it comes. I'll forewarn if I'm riding through emotional swings.
The good news is that I'm healing well. I'm feeling good about my surgery choices. I like to pat myself on the back about getting this far without having any major set backs, colds, or other illnesses. I was trying to convince my oncologist that there should be an award for that but it's not in the cards. I apologize if I raised any alarms with my surgery posts. Looking back I guess it might have been a bit overwhelming.
Another good sign is that I am now gaining back hair. Sadly my legs are the first to show signs but I now have a five o'clock shadow now on my scalp as well. I'll follow the pace of hair growth as a good reminder of the speed that I should pursue on recovery - slow and sure.
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